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| niggaroshio.tumblr.com
ha, it's as cheesy as it sounds. but it's still me being honest at my usual state. laterz yawww
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| recently, a friend introduced gregor samsa to me. was skeptical about them at first but after i knew they were post-rock, i've been playing young and old on repeat for a few days now and i find it soothing... yknow pleasant enough to read ppt notes with it.
i also went back to sigur ros after such a long time. oh i've been stagnant for far too long. and, today was the first time this year i played bball. i almost forgot what it felt like to dribble, defend and mainly, crank my knees while defending. loved it. but damn, i'm too rough on the court for my own good.
now my body is as close to dead as possible. imma head to bed early and start work afresh tomoz!
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had someone random come up and ask me, do you tattoo for yourself or for others to see?
and recently, a friend asked me if she was to ink this symbol, should she do it this way or the other way up?
i reckon there isn't a definite answer to that because we are all different in our own unique way and some people just enjoy things differently to others. i don't think it's wrong to ink it for others to see but then, what's the point in that? is there no personal reasons behind such a work? is there no thought spared for a decision like this?
this is all rhetorical but it's just me sorting my thoughts out after a loooong weekend. come to think of it, it has been a long while since i've had the urge to get another tatt. i did have thoughts about a full back slab or half sleeve when i was 17-18 even though i already had 6 by then. it's hell addictive and for me, back then, the pain i felt was a relief to my own emptiness. everytime i felt like i wanted to fill the void in my heart, i would head down to aric's unannounced and i'll get something done. it's not as impulsive as it seems. i had prior thought to it but i just needed to feel if the time was right.
and it's all god's doing because i couldn't have stopped myself back then. even right now, i tried putting inking thoughts into my head, it ain't working. i'm not craving for it. but i don't regret my past either. after all, its the past that shapes us into our present being. i seriously need to get less consumed in my head grrrrr i bet it's the lack of sleep i've experienced for the past 3 nights!
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| oh god, i just read my bro's fcbk and it's freaking me out he might be dating an austrian, in beijing china. i mean i think it's a good change from all the chink high maintenance girlfs he had beforehand but hey it's freaking me out because i don't see anything a european would see in my bro.
anyway, i got my first aussie pay today and i love my job thank god for it like furreal man i don't even know what possessed me to even ask for job availibility let alone, gain an answer straight up. great things man great things. and even though i stayed up abit, tossed and turned over wesley's amazing evangelistic story with his church mates i couldn't help but think, maybe, just maybe i too could be part of something like that. part of something incredible. changing people's lives by exposing them to god's grace and mercy. i, too, want to break out of my zone.
but for now. i need the wisdom and discipline to conquer my mountains. but i'm glad my aunt helped me out abit. it's been 3 years and this is the longest i've been in church for, consistently. prior to this episode, i pretty much faded in and out and eventually, one day i just lost it. but i remembered my bartendering days, praying every day and night kept me right by him. kept me sane and strong.
you are awesome g o d, thanks for sending various types of people into my life this year. and i don't know but this is one hella of a personal post but i really needed to get it out. i've been thinking about all of this for the past few weeks, even riding home tonight my mind kept replaying scenes and bits of memories. how much can my mind take man, i don't know. but i sure in hell know i'm tired from all that i've got lately.
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